I'm not allowed to nap

So, after battling exhaustion the last few days, I have decided that it is better that I just stay kind of tired throughout the day than try to nap and get completely and totally exhausted.  I still don't have any clue why I am getting so tired.  I know I haven't been sleeping real well, but I feel like I haven't even gotten to close my eyes in the past three months.  Travis actually had to stay home after his lunch yesterday because I was literally falling asleep while feeding Bella.  I could NOT function.  I need to figure this shit out.  I hate feeling tired.

Anyhow...I have finally got some ideas for Christmas gifts.  Since money is so tight, we'll be making most of our gifts, and they will be pretty simple, but I have got to get started soon.  One of the things that it going to be taking the longest is the clipboard calendars.  I've made them before and they're a really fun idea but its SUCH a pain to do manually.   Its hard to describe them.  I'll have to post pics when I finish one.  We're hoping to do them for a few people in Travis's family.

To be honest, I'm a little iffy about giving his family anything.  Last year I made his grandmother a rosary and was actually really happy with how it turned out...and when I gave it to her she just said "oh, okay" and tossed it aside.  It took a lot of work figuring out how to make it and whatnot, since I'm not Catholic and I really didn't even know what a rosary consisted of, but I made it and Travis got it blessed by his mother's favorite priest (she passed in Sept of 08).  And she just fucking tossed it aside.

I'm still a little sore about that, can you tell?

Anyway, we'll also be doing a few other little crafty things...if I can get my ass in gear and actually start them all.  I think we need to hit up a craft store this weekend to find a few of the little things I'm going to need (magnetic strip and a piece of sheet metal).  Hopefully once I get everything we can start getting them done.

Blah.  So...in other news for this week, we have our trees up.  And yes I mean trees.  We have the tree in the living room, that we bought but weren't allowed to decorate because God forbid we don't decorate it how their mother would have.  We also have a small tree in Bella's room that I didn't get to decorate because I was folding clothes while Travis decorated it.  Yeah, a little sore about that too.  He got to put up both of our ornaments (one for our family and one for Bella) and I didn't do shit. -.-

Oh, and the house looks like someone threw up decorations everywhere.  Apparently their mother used to go a little overboard, and his sister insists on doing things how 'mommy' did them (sorry but it irks me that a 21 yr old still refers to her mother as mommy...never just mom...then again, she acts like a 5 yr old, so that doesn't help).  So I have to tiptoe around the house to avoid knocking things over.

Ooooh AND there are currently five Christmas stockings up...and none of them are for me or Bella....  She hung up hers, Travis's, her gf's, their mom's and their mom's bf's...she did this because she didn't want there to be enough room for Bella or me to have stockings.  WTF?  Seriously, I'm ready to move.  THAT would be my ideal Christmas present.  As I've said many times before, I'd rather be back in KS in my tiny ass studio apartment than in this fucking house.

Anyway, its probably time for me to go make the monkey a bottle.  She's been napping for awhile and she looks like she's starting to stir.